first story;star

I just wanna compare something that I like. With him.
Compare about stars and him.
I guess all of you gonna feel confuse.
Why him? I don't even know.
Anyway, his name means star.
Unpredictable, right?

Stars are beautiful, so does he. But now, he's an exception. He's not as beautiful as stars. Anymore.

I love stars more than anything in this world, so does he. But now, he's an exception. He's not as important as stars anymore.

Stars always success make my heart fells like a grenade. So does he. But now, he's not as good as stars anymore.

I always wait for stars everynight everytime. So does he. But now, i'm not waiting for him anymore

But back then, I was waiting for him everytime. Why I always say " but now, he's an exception " ? Because i'm tired. I'm tired of his scenario that I don't understand.

I always think, care, with everything about him.
But, does he think and care with myself too ?
No, he doesn't. I found that answer after I got this feeling called " broken - heart "

But one night, he told me, told everyone. That he choose me. He cares with myself. He thinks about myself. And he also wait for me ..

He told me about it when I decided to give up with this sucking-feeling, when I already find another star called 1004.

At that time, I was feeling mad, happy, and sad at the same time.

I was madd, I was sad. Why didn't he tell me about it earlier? why didn't he show it earlier? huh?!

He cares about it when it's too late.
He confess it when I already found 1004.

-tbc-

writer : azzahra nae ubab